Damien Mulley

I want:

1) A press complaints commission like they have in the UK. So that when some “journalist” on the radio is either kissing some companies ass ir is totally biased whatever reason they can be brought to task.

2) A consumer affairs group that has balls. Take IrelandOffline and give it fangs and a deeper growl. Someone to abuse the shit out of those wankers in Comreg and Eircom. There are good people in Comreg that want change I would guess but right now the fuckwits are ruling the roost.

3) Some Gay Rights Group. Not something like Outrage in the UK but a group that will back you up if you are being discriminated against. The Equality Authority does good granted but its nice to have someone in your corner to give you support.

Its amazing how some people believe their own lies and suddenly history is rewritten. Some people really don’t like their own lives do they ?

London once again impressed me. The last time I was over there was 2 years ago and I saw a bit more of it this time. I’ll be going back again soon I think.

The city or Metropolis as Kevin called it is full of beautiful buildings and the people are actually quite friendly for a city of its size. Theres a massive amount of culture in London and England itself seems to care about it. Maybe the average joe soap doesn’t give too much thought but governments and organisations such as the BBC do. Moreso I think than Ireland. Nothing in comparison to the Icelanders who all seem to care about culture.

Went to the Tate Modern and the Saatchi Gallery. The Weather Project was pretty cool. Set inside the giant turbine hall you can lie on the ground and stare up at the “sky” which is a ceiling with mirrors that seem to move slightly.

The Tate is huge and has a fuckload of contemporary art, some good, some utter shit and some fantastic. However for me I enjoyed the Saatchi Gallery more. Some good Damien Hirst stuff and theres this picture of Myra Hindley by Marcus Harvey thats unnerving. Its her famous black and shite police photo and its made up of black and white kids handprints. Theres also fab lifelike works by Ron Muek

The London Eye is also impressive and the Millenium Bridge. All in all its a lovely place and their transport system is so efficient and so easy. If Dublin had decided back in the 60s to build an underground like London it would be a different city today. It would be more internationally known and respected.

Off to London for a few days. Go me.

Hurrah.

Figured out some stuff over the past few days. Things I need to do and all that. Some stuff I need to do is embarassing, others are going to involve emotional pain and some things are going to be plain nasty. I’m very comfortable right now with my life but I think I may be too comfortable.

The western world is too pampered. The drive for a lot of us is gone, or it never occured. Jesus this sounds like fight club but its true, we are lost in the new world. But as well as that television tells us we can be joe millionaire and to strive to be a statistic beater and be a movie star or a popstar, but then if we fail they don’t want to know about it. Its all or nothing and when 99% of us nothings realise we won’t be the 1% what happens ?

We as a group can probably change the world by each doing something small in combination with everyone else if we were motivated, but we are too comfortable and we are too used to being allowed to not push ourselves. I think society is slowing down and I wonder will it stop and die under its own fat lazy weight.

So, maybe I should leave this society or react against it ? No wonder so many people escape using drinks and drugs.

Come on Humanity. Fight, stop being so apathetic. The ugent need to improve oneself and life and discover so much has gone. Why is that ?

Powerless by Miz Furtado has been in my head a lot recently. I have her last album and I love it. Theres a song called “On the Radio” thats a kind of “Fuck you, I’m doing my shit without you, and staying true to myself. And you said I wouldn’t do it without you. Well I’ve done it”

Its a great song, and her new album I hope will be as good. I think someone might have purchased this album for me so I’ll wait before buying. Shes dad sexy too. Anyway, heres powerless:

Powerless (Say What You Want)”

Paint my face in your magazines
Make it look whiter than it seems
Paint me over with your dreams
Shove away my ethnicity
Burn every notion that I may have a flame inside to fight
And say just what is on my mind
Without offending your might

Cuz this life is too short to live it just for you
But when you feel so powerless what are you gonna do
So say what you want
Say what you want

I saw her face outside today
Weatherworn, looking all the rage
They took her passion and her gaze and made a poster
Now it’s moccasins we sport
We take the culture and contort
Perhaps only to distort what we are hiding

Cuz this life is too short to live it just for you
But when you feel so powerless what are you gonna do
But say what you want
Say what you want

Hey you, the one outside, are you ever gonna get in, get in
Hey you, the one that don’t fit in, how ya, how ya gonna get in
Hey you, the one outside, are you ever gonna get in with your
Broken teeth, broken jaw, broken mojo
Yeah, this life is too short to live it just for you
But when you feel so powerless, what are you gonna do

Cuz this life is too short to live it just for you
But when you feel so powerless, what are you gonna do

Listening to an Irish band called The Tycho Brahe at the moment. I like the below song the most just for the two lines “Am I not a good person, Am I not a good soul”. The singers got a beautiful voice and shes backed up by musicians that seem to be mature enough to play quality music. The lyrics throughout the album are very Poetic and convey some lovely imagery. More Tycho Brahe Lyrics here.

Some other lines are:
“Thinking about the wizardry of dreams
How a man can turn a girl into a saint
Because it’s easier to hold onto the pain
It takes courage to let go”

Mmmmm. Yes.

Song Name: Defiance

There is a knot inside
I’m unable to make sense of this world
This world
The pain is doubled by the light from others’ windows
And it is trebled by the darkness on the ground

Am I not a good person?
Am I not a good soul

Well I do believe in magic but I cannot make it work
I have doubts
Such doubts
I may be lonelier than ever at this juncture
But I like myself enough to stick around

Am I not a good person?
Am I not a good soul

I am trying
And I mean it
I’m not a liar
But I fail sometimes
And I mess up
And I clean up
But the fault is
All mine

Am I not a good person?
Am I not a good soul

2003 I liked. 2004 I’ll like too I hope. Maybe its a good year. My shit is finally in order I guess. I have a longterm plan formulated for about 6 months. Posted bits from it before on this site.

Summary: New job. Holiday to Africa or Japan. New love. New qualifications. Posisbly College. Social Anthropology looks good. Philosophy in UCC looks interesting too as does Sociology.